Yes I pride myself on the fact that for the most part I can hold my ex-buyer (read: truck driver’s) tongue when I am on “Mom duty”. My kids haven’t heard me use much colorful language. My younger ones still firmly believe that the “S” word is for “stupid”. I may have uttered a quiet “shit” when spilling an entire pitcher of lemonade on the floor for example, or perhaps allowed a “What the hell” to escape under my breath now and then. But I think for the most part, I’ve done it in such a way that the younger kids haven’t heard me (I think the older kids actually listen for it)….and I have never (yet) allowed any of those “major” curse words to fly out of my mouth…..
But one of my children, whom shall not be named, is someday going to cause me to drop the F-bomb. As in “What the f*uck are you doing?!” or “Stop acting like such a f*cking idiot!” No, those words won’t come easily… they will only flow forth after an escalting afternoon of near constant teasing and belittling of that person’s younger siblings. A mean-spirit that he never shows outside of the home (thankfully)… that is only reserved for those that live in his own household… the part of him that “come out” when he decides to torment his siblings for fun. It absolutely makes me crazy at times….
That child is going to trip me up one of these days… and the words that are going to tumble out of my mouth will make sailors blush.
But honestly- it isn’t that afternoon that I am most worried about. I know that I will be horrified, and I will apologize profusely. And of course explain to anyone in earshot about bad words and the non-creative people who rely on them to express an emotion… and how they can be and should be so much better than those words. And so on…. and so forth… yada…. yada…. yada….
But as I said… that’s not the part I am worried about.
I am worried that if I open the door, when I open the door…. can I ever put the horses back in the barn again? Or have I crossed into the never-never land of using those words on a semi-regular basis?
So for now, I must bite my tongue and try to hold back the day.
How about you? What have you allowed to “slip out” in front of your kids?
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